diary of an insideman vol.1



jane says, she’s goin away to spain…



The Youtube Effect

Faceless 1: nilapitan nya ako, sabi bawal daw magyoutube. okay lang sana kasi company policy, ang kaso, buti sana kung lahat pinapagbawalan nya. yung close friend nya palaging nagyouyoutube di naman nya pinagsabihan nung nilapitan nya ako…

Faceless 2: you know whats even funnier… the other day while i was about to leave, sya mismo nanunuud ng youtube. hehehe.



guhit

“ang mundo ay katulad ng iyong iginuhit. pwede kang magbura pero andun na ang mga linya sa ilalim ng iyong papel. sa halip na magbura, gumuhit ka muli ng bagong mundo. wag mong pilitin na maging perpektong bilog ito. alalahanin mo na ang mundo ay bilog lamang kapag ikay nakatayo sa ibabaw ng haring araw, na laging panandalian lamang bago ka lamunin ng apoy nito. kapag ikay lumapit sa mundo, dun mo makikita na may malalim palang dagat na kumukubli sa pagiging inperpekto ng kanyang mukha. kaya wag kang mapagod gumihit.”

—Bagong Alab



sundance

i know how people do it.
its the way our blood flows.
the highways and sidestreets of the sentient.
people will get caught in it,
a number of times before their last breaths,
but they will escape from it more than the
times they exhaled in their lifetime.
i know why we do it. just because we can.
darn it im infected but who’s not?

sun is light and but it’s got a darkness…
ever listened to it like it was mathematics?



the n’sync syndrome

contestant #8:
you know what reverend, if there’s one thing i really don’t understand about us people, its the funny irony of giving too much time and effort on the things we say we hate. may it be other people, other ideas etc…

dya remember the i-hate-boy/girl-bands era in the late 90’s and early 2000’s? people were running up to the hills just so they wont get identified with the bubble-gum-poppin kitties and the new batch of NKOTB cutties. we’d hear stuff like “i hate them lame-ass boy groups, singin like fags on a sunday morning, i hate that shit, i hate it!!!” and heads came riding the bandwagon, even the cats that havent even heard a single track from any of them groups joined in. idunno, maybe at that time it was the “in” thing hehe.

i guess my point is, i mean, seriously, hahaha, d’we really waste time on things we say ARE waste of our time? things that we say are crap and dont have any worth? i think it cancels the logic on that shit. if its shit, then why in noah’s name are we breakin our neck about it? so we listen to judas priest or 50 cent or nirvana and we say its the real music, its the right music that people should be listening to, cmon, do we really think it matters to them pop-lovin kids what we got on our ipod?

i think maybe we just want to feel good about ourselves. that we know better. that we ARE better than these people and the wack music theyre digging. its kinda like a defense mechanism. we’d say negative stuff about something even when people aint askin just so we’d have something to hold on to. something to justify why we’re here now listening to our old records and screaming from the top of our lungs that vinyl is still the real deal. but aint nobody listenin, just us and the people who are also stuck in the confined circle-of-heads reality. and also sometimes, this is funny as shit, we once liked listening to them pop acts. :))
what d’ya think reverend, am i making any sense here? you know its not only about music…

reverend jeo:
my sister bought backstreetboys first EP back in the days, and she played it like the CIA’s mindcontrolin my head. i think i still remember every line of every track…

contestant #8:
you know, for a reverend, i dont really like you…



fish juice / carrot juice

if i remember it right, i think i first came across this flash movie (the first part) way back when my ass was still new in the company. the antel makati days. im still waiting for the 3rd part, cmon sambakza people!!! :-"

click the images to watch ‘em… (”click the images”… wew, that is soo new :)) )

there she is
there she is (part 1)

cake dance
cake dance (part 2)



in the sweet sunshower…

Dark as roses, fine as sand
Feel your healing and your sting again
I hear you laughing and my soul is saved
On forgotten graves you cry
Crawl like ivy up my spine
Through my nerves and into my eyes
Cuts like anguish
Or recollections of better days gone by

But it’s all right
When you’re caught in pain
And you feel the rain come down
It’s all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
It’s all right
Though your garden’s grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower

Eyes like oceans so far away
A feather trail to a better way
Worried mornings turn into days
Then into worried nights

But it’s all right
When you’re all in pain
And you feel the rain come down
Oh it’s all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
Oh it’s all right
Though your garden’s grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
In the sweet sunshower

I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower
And it’s all right
All you’ll be you are today
Are today
It’s all right
All you’ll be you are today
Are today………



volume #005

“Langya talaga yung kapitbahay ko, anlakas makinig ng music! Akala nya ata gusto gusto naming ibang nakatira sa lugar yung mga pinapatugtog nya. Hindi ko maintindihan mga taong ganun. Parang sa opisina ganun din mga tao dun, kanya kanyang dala ng speakers ang puta. Pasikatan ng kung ano pinapakinggan. Eh putangina eh ano naman ngayon kung nakikinig ka ng Metallica o Puff Daddy o Backstreet Boys o Judas Priest o putanginang Bob Marley??? Saksak nila music nila sa tenga nila, hindi yung pati iba eh gusto nila bingihin…. langya. Oi jeo, play mo nga to, side b ha, anjan yung lost in love eh.”

—itinago sa pangalang Junjun, september 2007



volume #004

“i remember years ago, whenever i’d wanna forget about her and the story of the two of us, i’d get really drunk. and most of the time it works. then eventually i got over it, got over her. but you know whats funny? nowadays, i usually dont wanna get drunk like shit anymore, because everytime i get too much alcohol in my system, the whole fucking story comes rushing back like a Super C freight train.”

—Antonio the junkie